durian tIme..

bercakap sal durian, hari ni mmg rezki sy sebab dapat makan DURIAN...yeahh!!!!

sy happy sebab sblm ni kwn2 umah saya ada makan durian tp sy tak dpt mkn, bukan sbb tak cukup sebab sy terlalu melayan emosi msa tu, kwn offer durian pn tak lalu makan.. i just said "no thanks" then i'm cries..huhu..not because the durian but i'm too sad till i can't feel to eat or carving for someting..hoo..(coz i had problem with someone but now we ord okay ^_^)

then today, when we went to sport center we been offering to eat durian, what a lucky day..hehe..mmg sy makan puas until skg ni masih terasa durian tu..hehe..

miss you... ^_^

...

this is the stupid decision that i ever made or 바보
i can't think positively on that time till i take this action,
action that can make me more hurt, more miserable and i can be more worse than that.
but i didn't know how his feeling bout this, but im sure he also upset with it..
and now i'm really feel bad about it..
i really miss him right now..i couldn't even not think bout him now..always think

i'm really sorry... : (  :'(  ᅲᅲ

miss you...

My tRip

it's already november...huuu
okay..sekarang ni memang dh november pun and a few week more its already december. Guest what will happen in december?? who knows rite..hee.. forget about december and we back at november again.

Huh..few month before i already been to Langkawi for my 1st trip, and its was great and i love that experience. I will never forget that trip and thanks to him coz willing to accompany me or i can call it our trip.

Our 2nd trip just nearby here coz we didn't have to take a bus or cross the sea, we just have to drive. drive by our ownself...hehe.. our next destination was Bukit Merah.. i'm a bit upset coz i didn't take a picture much, if not i can share it how Bukit Merah really look alike.

Bukit Merah is just nice. its water park nothing much that we can played, but its had a lake, ecopark and it had a animal shows inside it. the shows start every 1 hour and lucky to him coz be the chosen one who can play a trick with the bird ( i already forget the bird name), somehow its quite funny and the audience was enjoyed it too..hee

for the next trip...wait and see...hee

tIreD

i smile..but i didn't same as before..

i smile but i taste it bitter,

i put some sugar on it (even i know i didn't like it) but it taste bland.

i juz let it be like that, and hoping someone will put a secret ingredients on it to be taste as before..

i open my eyes..i didn't seen what i'm hoping for

i open my eyes but it kill my heart

i take a some medicine but it still dying 

i juz let it be and hoping..hoping..and hoping...

i'm waiting..waiting...and waiting and still waiting...

the truth i miss and need u...

i'm smiling inside i'm dying

i'm smiling inside i'm dying.. <------ that is the best to describe my situation now..
if there is anybody had experience like this before, they will noe how hurt it is..we force ourself to smilie, to be happy, sometimes pretends nothing happen juz to cover-up, but inside we bear a pain.
i need someone to talk, to share with what i felt but it ended to made me more hurt than before.
hmm...i shouldn't do like this to him
i should noe and understand what he doing, but...(i will juz keep it wif me)
but i noe its not his fault at all..everything is coming from me, all the problem coming from me. i'm the one who didn't understand him..
you didn't have to sorry wif me, instead i'm the one should sorry to you
i'm sorry... :'(  
i'm so sorry.. i should realize that i'm not good enough for you..sorry..
i'm sorry my budak besar yang guletz..

mY vacation

ehem..ehem..testing 1 2 3..hehehe
dh agak lama jgk x update blog ni..n dalam masa x update blog ni bnyk jgk perkara yg terjadi..tapi semuanya ok2 saja..bermula daripada sy sampi ke bumi semenanjung ni sehinggalah  sekarang..dan juga perjalanan sy dari utara semenanjung sehinggalah ke selatan semenanjung..
hmm..bercakap ttg perjalanan saya dari utara semenanjung sehingga ke selatan semenanjung..its quite interesting experience for me, coz i never do it before, never happen to me and i didn't expect these will happen to me..it's all start with a vacation that we plan on last minute decision..
talk about vacation..i using my holiday with a trip that i never expect that i will do..its all start with a plan with someone..hehe.. at 1st, we already plan to have a trip to Langkawi or we called it a backpack travel..we already set the day and time, but because of my time management it didn't run smoothly as we plan it..because we missed the bus and i admit it's my fault...hehe..
after we missed the bus we juz plan to have a short trip to Genting or anywhere coz we have a free time for 3 days, so we want to use it for any activities and so on. but after we sit together and discuss about our trip again, then we make a decision together and carry on our plan to Langkawi with take a night's bus..huhu..we reach at Langkawi about 10:30am, then we rent a car because it is useful when we want to explore Langkawi freely..hehe..
1st activities that we do is island hoping..with a boat we went to Pulau Dayang Bunting..when we in the middle of the sea or quite far from that Island, we can see the Island looked like a pregnant women that was sleeping.

how its look??

we went to that island and swimming (with a life jacket..hihi) coz i cant swim.. :p

after that we went to Pulau Singa Besar to watch an eagle..hmm..its juz ok..huhu..then after that we went to Pulau Beras Basah juz to take a picture coz we didn't have much time to playing there because of the tide..huhu..

i have a lot of picture during my vacation/trip..but its my privacy..hehehe..

i think this is already enough n i will continue my trip's stories next time..hehehe

I Miss You

i hate this feeling...ermm...