mY vacation

ehem..ehem..testing 1 2 3..hehehe
dh agak lama jgk x update blog ni..n dalam masa x update blog ni bnyk jgk perkara yg terjadi..tapi semuanya ok2 saja..bermula daripada sy sampi ke bumi semenanjung ni sehinggalah  sekarang..dan juga perjalanan sy dari utara semenanjung sehinggalah ke selatan semenanjung..
hmm..bercakap ttg perjalanan saya dari utara semenanjung sehingga ke selatan semenanjung..its quite interesting experience for me, coz i never do it before, never happen to me and i didn't expect these will happen to me..it's all start with a vacation that we plan on last minute decision..
talk about vacation..i using my holiday with a trip that i never expect that i will do..its all start with a plan with someone..hehe.. at 1st, we already plan to have a trip to Langkawi or we called it a backpack travel..we already set the day and time, but because of my time management it didn't run smoothly as we plan it..because we missed the bus and i admit it's my fault...hehe..
after we missed the bus we juz plan to have a short trip to Genting or anywhere coz we have a free time for 3 days, so we want to use it for any activities and so on. but after we sit together and discuss about our trip again, then we make a decision together and carry on our plan to Langkawi with take a night's bus..huhu..we reach at Langkawi about 10:30am, then we rent a car because it is useful when we want to explore Langkawi freely..hehe..
1st activities that we do is island hoping..with a boat we went to Pulau Dayang Bunting..when we in the middle of the sea or quite far from that Island, we can see the Island looked like a pregnant women that was sleeping.

how its look??

we went to that island and swimming (with a life jacket..hihi) coz i cant swim.. :p

after that we went to Pulau Singa Besar to watch an eagle..hmm..its juz ok..huhu..then after that we went to Pulau Beras Basah juz to take a picture coz we didn't have much time to playing there because of the tide..huhu..

i have a lot of picture during my vacation/trip..but its my privacy..hehehe..

i think this is already enough n i will continue my trip's stories next time..hehehe

I Miss You

i hate this feeling...ermm...

Pack time!!

PACKING!!! Huh...the part that i hate most..
when comes on packing time i hate it very much..coz i alwys hv a problem to pack my stuff..if i said my bag is not big enough, i think it's much bigger than i thought. if i used my smaller bag, then i hv to carry my other stuff in a plastic bags..that will make me more miserable coz i hv to carry it all with my bare hand and that make me more musty..huu..that why i hate to pack..i wish if i can ask someone to can carry my stuff..hehehe..just kidding..but i hate it or not i have to pack my stuff coz it is belong to me..huu..
today is my last day in my "home sweet home". i like being staying in my home but i have to go to finish what i hv started..(arghh...i hate my brother, why he playing such a sad song this moment..huh..feel like want to crying :'( n kick him.. but i will be miss them..huu) just forget about that..hmm.. tomorrow i will leaving on the jet plane..hee..ok that all, i hv to go to pack my stuff..huu..
miss my pink cockroach..huu

I'm Fine

Today its not like i expect. I tot when yesterday were past, it will be going fine to the  next day, but i was wrong. Its getting more worst, i already trying my best to satisfied them, but its useless. Its still not perfect, i also don’t get it what else i must do. People always says, nobody is perfect but that phrase make me dont believe it. If nobody perfect, why they cant accept the fact that i’m not perfect. People always make a mistake, and I also can make a mistake. Sometimes i thinks that i’m not lucky enough compare to the other, but i can just ignore it and be grateful for what i have now. the pain..the pain that i feel tonight it seem vanish, coz my friend always there for me. On this time, when i really need someone to speak with, i just think about him. But i know he need a time with his friends too, i dont want to ruin his time with his friend with my problem that i create . but, i still has my friends that always care about me. He is just not my friend, he is my listener,  he is my advicer and he is my best friend. He such a great friend. He listening everything that came out from me. Can speak with him tonight make me more relief. Now i can smile again.  It’s too bad coz i can’t meet him while i’m here. I always try to find a suitable time to meet him, to talk with him, to share everything that ever happen to me. But, i don’t have that chance. Maybe someday..

hmm..

i dont know and i dont have any idea what title i want give to this entry..
today maybe a bad day for me, everything that i did isn't rite.. i also don't know why i cant make people satisfied with what i did..i admit that i had a lot of weakness and i did everything to fix it and its still useless..
i had a mixed feeling rite now..if i can, i want to spit it out
crying?? i already did it..
mad??hrm,  its useless..i dont have any power on it
be a deaf??believe me, its just make the situation more worst
be a invisible person??its can make a disaster
runaway?? if i have a courage..
what i can do, i just accept it..
what i want do most thing right now i just want to scream..scream out loud and scream until i drop..

sometimes..
i feel i'm a useless..for everything that i did is not worth...
and i'm so sorry for imperfection of me..

Everything is OK

time cuti2 ni banyk pula perkara yang berlaku..dan semuanya pun yang "unexpected" ni..cam semalam kakak sy mau hantar bapa kmi pi hospital, sbb bapa sy rasa kurang sihat sejak dua hari tu, n saya dgn anak sedara sy pn join la sbb kmi igt mau jalan2 di pasar malam smntra kakak sy temankn bapa sy pi hospital. so, sy dgn ank sedara sy tu pn singgah la di pasar malam. saja jalan2 sbb rasa boring di rumah. kmi pn jalan..jalan..jalan..sampai lah habis round 1 tamu malam tu..jd, sy pn call la adik sy mau suruh ambil kmi d tamu malam tu..tp boleh pula adik sy suruh kami jalan kaki dari tamu malam tu pi hospital..sy ok ja, boleh ja jalan pi hospital tu dari tamu tp anak sedra sy tu bgi macam2 pula alasan sbb tdk mau jalan kaki..lpas tu kmi call lagi kak sy...bila ja kak sy ckp lama lg sbb si bapa kna tahan di hospital n mau kna hantar pi Queen..hmm..teda pilihan lain jalan kaki la dari tamu tu pi hospital..smpi hospital, nmpkla bapa sy tu kna suru baring sambil tunggu driver ambulance n doktor sampai..owh, sorang lg, tgu mama kmi sampai. lama juga kmi di hospital. tunggu sampai bapa kmi tu kna bawa pi hospital Queen. so, mama kami la yg temankan bapa. dan smpi skg, c bapa n c mama msi lg d situ, tdk tau bila balik..tu yang smlm, hari ni pla nth kerja gila apa yg kak sy buat, padan muka cri penyakit sendiri..nasib baik la sy ada, bleh la tlong uruskan anak2 dia..dan dia skli..hurmm..esok, tdk taw apa yg akan berlaku lg..huhu